TTC will always be a mystery to me

Sorry it's been awhile since I've written in here...trying not to think about it so much and thinking that might help!

So, last time I wrote, I started my period on March 18th (2 days early) and was kinda bummed but happy I started my period. Well, this cycle was different from the first. I bought 12 OPK tests from Dollar Tree and used 6 of them (all were negative..1 was kinda positive not sure though). So, that kinda brought me down and wasn't sure if I was doing it right so we pretty much just had sex following the ovulation calendar. Well, last cycle was 26 days. I am now on day 30 and Sunday night, yesterday morning and night had some serious cramps like I was going to start my period (so bad last night I kept waking up from them..haven't had that in awhile). So, I totally figured I would have started my period by now. Nope...but, I took a pregnancy test last night and it was BFN. So, who knows?? One thing I did notice that's different with this cycle are my BB's aren't sore like they normally are when I'm about to start my period. So weird. Charting your cycle is so ridiculous. I just want it to be easy, damn it!! But, I know it won't be and I've prepared myself for that. Thinking positive all the time now and just going with the flow. So, I'm thinking if I don't start my period by Friday, I will take another test. If it's a BFP, time to go see OB/GYN!!! I just switched to a new doctor (since my last one was a joke) so we shall see. I will keep you updated! Until next time. xoxo

MJ :)